There will always be sad, sad days...

It is official the wonderful girl I was dating without titles has officially ended our dating relationship. I didn't realize how much I cared about her until she said something. I feel like balling my eyes out but I know that this is for the best in the long run. She is an amazing girl and I wouldn't change anything about the relationship we had except I would tell her I cared about her more and I would show her the poems I wrote for her. Now she will never see them and that makes me sad. She cooked an amazing dinner tonight. We had Alfredo bow tie pasta with scallops and shrimp and squash, yellow and zucchini. If my mom knew I ate scallops or squash she'd scream...lol. I learned a ton from her and I wish her the best in life. I know we will remain friends and that is great. If she is reading this she knows I care about her and she will always have a special place in my heart. Thanks for ending this the right way. I have the most admiration and respect for you!

To everyone who reads this I wish I knew who you were and thanks for reading. This is definitely a way for me to calm myself down and think about things. Plus maybe one day I will get to write a book and this is a way for me to train myself a little. All I know is that in this life it is short and we need to live life to fullest. To have never loved is as if to have never existed at all. I am pretty sure I read that somewhere else but I feel that way about life. I end this night with sadness but tomorrow begins a new day...a new chapter in my life. I wouldn't change many pages in my book except the ones where I hurt people. Good Night!

Working...working...working!

Work has been going by really slow this week and I am not sure why. We do seem less busy than normal this week. I guess that can be good because we all need a break from the norm. I am really excited about the upcoming weekend! Not sure what is going on for sure but I am excited! Last weekend was a blast as well got to see some old friends and hope I get to see them again soon! If anyone wants to do anything this weekend I am game! Hope everyone has a great rest of the week!

I am excited because I just figured out a way to see what is happening at my house using a webcam. Kind of a surveillance camera if you may. It is really cool! Thanks to Kim Komando for the daily download! Check out her site if you have any computer related issues. She is the best!

I will post more again sometime this week! TTYL!

I decided to sign up for mobile blogging. This is just a test for me to see if i actually set this up right! Here goes nothing. Lol.

Work week finished...Martins #12 reunion tomorrow

With my work week finished it brings up so many opportunities to get into trouble...I am looking forward to the Martins #12 reunion get together tomorrow night. I hope a lot of people come to it! It will be nice to see everyone from back in the day! It is crazy for me to think I have spent almost as long at my current job as I did at Martins! I was at Martins for six years! Amber is watching the kids for me tomorrow and she seemed very reluctant to do so. You would think after almost 3 months of not seeing her kids she would want to get as much time with them as possible. Amber found out she doesn't have a job today and that is kind of scary. With this job market and how long it took her before to find a job I hope she can get something quick. The problem was she wouldn't apply for a job just anywhere. She had to find something in the medical/mental health field. Her boyfriend is laid off and now she doesn't have a job as well. Please pray for her and her family as they sort out what is happening right now!

What is great about today I took off work a few hours early to enjoy the beautiful sunshine and then I took a nap! That was what I needed because I had a bad headache and was afraid I was getting sick but the nap seemed to do the trick! Hoping to have a great night, tonight and tomorrow! I will try to update after the reunion tomorrow night but who knows for sure!

Overwhelmed...

I am feeling extremely overwhelmed with everything going on right now. The funny thing is most of the stuff I am dealing with is just normal everyday occurrences. I have shut off my phone updates for Facebook for awhile and I have also shut off my Twitter updates. I am going to see if these things help a little. I am starting to focus on what I feel is important in my life. My kids will always be #1 on that list. Last night the kids wouldn't go to bed and it really frustrated me and I don't ever feel that way. I am not completely sure everything that is happening is all in my head or if there is some physical component as well. Please pray for me as I take this journey in figuring out what need to do to feel less overwhelmed and more in control of my life.

Crazy month...Great Weekend!

I know it has been awhile since I last posted. It has been an amazingly fast month. I can't believe we are over half way through February already. This weekend was pretty awesome! Had a great time going to Chicago with Hannah and her family! I went up to the Skydeck on the Willis Tower(formerly Sears Tower) and was 103 stories above the ground. I also went ice skating in Downtown Chicago! It was very difficult for me to keep my balance but I never fell. We ate at Giordano's pizza...some of the best stuffed pizza I have ever had! Chicago was a blast and hope to have more excursions to the windy city!

Valentine's day was really nice as well! I took Hannah out to eat at Soho Japanese Bistro. We both have been wanting to go since it opened. She had scallops and filet mignon and I had Steak, Chicken, and Shrimp. We also had Eel to eat and Avocado wraps. It turns out eel doesn't taste bad at all. After dinner we decided to go see "Valentine's Day." It was a cute movie and I recommend seeing it with someone special! This year has been a great year so far on me trying new things. I tried eel, went to the top of the tallest building in America, went ice skating, ate broccoli, ate scallops, ate tomatoes, kiwi, mushrooms. Well lets just say it has been an exciting year so far!

My V-day didn't end as I expected...Ava ended up having to go to the ER because she got glue in her eyes from the mouse traps at her mom's house. I guess when it says keep out of reach of children on the box maybe people should heed that order. I had to drive to Meijer in order to find what type of adhesive it is and if it had any harmful chemicals besides the adhesive. I am sure she will be fine because the nurses know what brand the traps are now. It kind of bothered me when I found out Ava went to the ER. I definitely was struggling to stay focused on the task at hand. It was very noticeable to me and difficult for me to concentrate on just one thing. Good Night all! Have a great week!